I Surrender all

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Hello to anyone reading this. It has been quite a while since I wrote on here. I have been busy with facebook but now I am feeling it is time to write again.

I have been going through alot of changes since my husband died. It seems I am reinventing myself or refinding myself. Before I was a wife and mother and suddenly I am a single person again. It is like my old life died and now there lies a whole new world ahead of me. So what do I do?

Do I keep going on like I have been - doing nothing and being depressed? Or do I push forward and creater the life I want or the Life that God wants for me?

Well I decided to start living the life that God wants me to live. In doing that I am finding the enemy is not too happy. Since my decision, it is like he is attacking me at every turn. But he will not win as God is on my side.

I've had to make a few decisions about my life but my problem is that I am too impatient. I want things done and I want them done NOW. God is trying to teach me patience but I seem to fight him every step of the way.

I have decided to sell my house and move back to the city. There I am planning to have a total makeover. I need everything in my life changed from the way I dress, makeup (which I never wear now), to how I live each day. I want to lose weight, quit smoking, get into an exercise program, etc. and stay open to what God wants me to do.

Anyone with advice or help, please let me know.

I have given my notice at work and applied for a few apartments. Please pray for me that I will get the exact apartment that God wants me to get and that somehow I will be able to help others there.

So for now, that brings you up to date on what I have been doing. Hopefully I will continue to blog more often again.

Love to all who read me. Take care and God Bless.